QUANTUM NEWSLETTER APRIL 2000 ISSUE VOLUME 16

IN THIS ISSUE SIGNS, SIGNS, EVERYWHERE THERE ARE SIGNS! THE COLLECTIVE THE POWER TO MANIFEST ASTROLOGY REPORT ‘ON THE BRINK’ UPCOMING WORKSHOPS, CLASSES, LINKS "SIGNS, SIGNS EVERYWHERE THERE ARE SIGNS" by Gillian MacBeth-Louthan

"Signs, signs everywhere there are signs, do this don’t do that, can you read the signs?" Everything in our lives is yelling at us, demanding our undivided attention, our prayers, our time, and our energy. Just driving down the road can be exhausting, as the influx of all the signs arrives as a bull in a china shop. Crashing our expectations, forming a throw net of truths and insights that do not have a fence to grow upon or lean against. Everything we see, from the license plate on the car in front of us, to the signs in the Heavens, has a message. You know it’s a message, you see it’s a message but interpreting that message can be very trying and confusing. We continually seek interpretation externally. Looking outward the only way our human eyes can see. Outward, forward, and with tunnel vision. The signs continue, but the availability of understanding them seems to lessen. We search the books, the Internet, the newspapers, looking for a connection, an insight, a confirmation, that what we are seeing and feeling is real. Yet the very people who wrote the books, etc; are just as stranded on the island of ‘Dumb & Dumber’ as we are!

Technology increases, celestial phenomena lines up, messages come from every turn of life, and we all stock up on ’ginkgo’ trying to remember ‘what’s it all about Alfie?’ We need to view life as a "Collective," as a Singularity, as a red giant and a white dwarf. We need to see through the eyes of every past experience and every future dream. We need to see through the heart of the blind, and hear through the step of the crippled. The Universe is vast, all encompassing. It is every single grain of consciousness, every raindrop, every whisper of the wind, and every hair on every head that has ever been brushed. We walk through every day trying to understand our actions, our fears, our emotions, and our humanness. Each situation that we gift ourselves to learn from is a private Sacred Experience, between the Creator and us. It is to be embraced. It cannot always be understood at the moment of conception. But the internal knowing will eventually reach full gestation and be birthed. We each hold one letter of the alphabet, one number of Allness. Together we from words, truths and new equations of understanding. As the letters of our Soul come together to form new truths we will be escorted into places of understanding and interpretation that up until now have been locked. As we experience our daily lives, we each view a different colored strand of the weaving of the tapestry of God. All threads are separate, yet interwoven. Each thread will have a different experience of ups, downs, and in-betweens. No two threads shall be woven or used in the same way. Thus creating a work of art and beauty, so vastly different, and yet completely at ‘One’. Do not spend all of your time and energy trying to dissect the signs of your life. You can easily get lost in the maze of it all and never reach the cheese. Relax into your lives. You all swim so hard against the current events, you are exhausted by the end of the day. Relax, float, and just know, all is well and going according to schedule. It is your intention that holds the most power. The time for acting on those intentions will come soon. You may be eager to plant corn, because you have the seeds, the signs. Timing is essential, seasons are important. You can plant now, but the crop of choice will not be fruitful any earlier than the designated natural cycle of harvest and events. Stop beating yourselves up for being a day late and a dollar short, for being tardy, or entirely missing the boat. What your experience is, is Divinely timed and perfect, nothing more, nothing less.

THE COLLECTIVE By Gillian MacBeth-Louthan

For many years we have reached outside of ourselves for truth, wisdom, knowledge, miracles and just plain old prove. We have lit candles, said ‘Hail Mary’s’ prayed to statues, icons, and literally lost ourselves in the deluge of all that was ‘supposed to be’ greater, holier and more divine than ourselves. We have called on the Angels, the Masters, the Saints, spirit guides, and our beloved departed ones, asking for help, for intervention, for miracles, for the winning lottery numbers, for our soul mates phone number. As we got closer and closer to the year 2000 the lines of communication began to lessen and grow fragmented.

We continued to go outside of ourselves to something ‘greater than’ us, something bigger, better, all knowing. The letters, emails, phone calls, from these ‘greater than’ energies continued to dwindle. We lied to ourselves and convinced ourselves that our third eye was clogged, our heart was closed, and our crown chakra was not in working order. We knew it was us that were broken, it had to be us that could not hear Gods words. We tried elixers, oils, crystals, meditation, readings, past life regression, and every other new age tool that was available. Still we could not hear the word of the Lord. We spent $1000’s, and 100’s of hours trying on every gimmick there was, trying to fix what we thought was broken. We looked at others green-eyed, as they seemed profound and all knowing. We thought that we might have E.D. - Enlightenment Dysfunction. We took this herb and this vitamin, wore this color on this day and still be could not achieve peak performance. Then one day we just stopped. We stopped praying because no one seemed to answer. We stopped meditating because the visions had not come in months. We stopped trying to manipulate our lives. We stopped trying to manifest our hearts desires, because our heart was so sad, thinking that it had E.D. Enlightenment Dysfunction. When we stopped trying so hard our lives began to change, little by little, day by day. We began to feel more comfortable in our own skin. We began to like ourselves again.

God did not seem so far away. Life was not as difficult, what had changed? We had finally come full circle and embraced ourselves, the good, the bad, and the un-seeable. We had finally embraced the past, the present, and whatever may come. We had finally learned how to love internally and completely, just as we were that minute. But still we felt something was different. A veil had been lifted; we had been set free, but from what? We had finally been set free from E.D.- Expectation Dysfunction. It was our expectations of what was supposed to be that had been tripping us up all the time. We saw the whole picture, not just a sliver. In actuality there are 144 layers to you! Your humanness is #144 and your Godness is #1. One hundred and forty three layers of you are enlightened, in light and pure spirit. Different levels and flavors of spirit, but still pure spirit. Only number 144 has partial amnesia, and bad hair days. Only #144 deals with traffic jams, headaches, in-laws, fire ants, and pimples. All the rest of you is pure energy and consciousness, still evolving, still moving forward, but not dealing with the 3-D world.

This part of you is called THE COLLECTIVE. The COLLECTIVE is always (all ways) available to you, for you, with you and through you. You are truly a complete God essence and God experience that can never be separated from Source. Source consists of all 144 layers of you. By breathing in your Collective, you integrate into your human self, All knowledge, All wisdom, and All Truth. Imagine your Collective as a vast all reaching energy within your own human light field. Reaching up to parts of Source you do not have complete memory of. Your Collective loves you, supports you, and is you. It exists as you exist, always. Breathe in deeply the breath of the Collective, fill your humanness with its essence, then on the exhale imagine your Collective breathing you in! Exchanging energy, light, and information. Reconnecting with each other finally. Like a cup of water pored back into the ocean. Coming home, coming into Oneness. Breathing in the Collective and allowing the Collective to breath you. This is truly coming into your power, your light, and your oneness. Connecting with the Source that is you. Receiving wisdom and truth from your personal eternal energy source. Not having to go outside of yourself to some far off distant galaxy to access a silver-haired almighty God. All that you seek is within, is part of you already. Your Collective has always been with you it can be no other way. Now is the time and place to renew your long forgotten relationship with your personal Collective. To reconnect through the breathe, the life force, to the Source that is always available to you 24 hrs. a day 7 days a week, forever. You will find an enormous love within the energy of your Collective, a love that has never ended, nor will it ever. All that you seek is available to you and for you and always has been. It is simple it is easy and it is God, and it is you!

THE POWER TO MANIFEST By Gillian MacBeth-Louthan

The power to manifest lives within us. It does not live in our billfold, our checking account, or our charge cards. The power to manifest is as internal and eternal as we are. The secret to manifestation has been handed down through the ages in every form of ancient text and writing. Our biblical text is based upon the power of manifestation, ‘in the beginning there was the word, and the world was made flesh’. Manifesting is our Divine and innate nature. It is the reason we came to earth, it is the reason we exist! Everything of life, responds to our words, our thoughts, our intentions. All of life listens and eavesdrops on our wishes, our whims, our fantasies. It then refolds itself into the direction of our thoughts. We practice the ORIGAMI of MANIFESTATION, every second of every day, 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, for our entire time on earth. Life is waiting for us to mold it. Every fleeting thought has potential to become reality. Every whim every desire, every decree waits to be birthed by our words. The Universe is composed of sub-atomic particles called QUANTA. The quantum is in everything that exists, formed and unformed. Imagine the air, all encompassing yet invisible, being the holding tank for the unformed quanta. Livingness that is just waiting for our next word, to be formed, to be birthed. As we raise in vibration the space and time between thought and manifestation will lessen. Eventually it will become instantaneous, but right now there is still time between thought and manifestation. Your world reflects every one of your thoughts, the good, the bad, the ugly. You on some level are responsible for creating what you are living at this time. On a daily basis we have about 86,400 thoughts (waking & sleeping). About 60,000 of those thoughts are negative, self-defeating, and from the past. (what we once did, who once hurt us, what once happened) Imagine 60,000 people walking through your home day after day, and you allowing this to happen! Apply that same understanding in the format of allowing 60,000 negative, self-sabotaging thoughts to enter you day after day, year after year!! It is time to say ‘NO"! just say NO! Every time you find yourself worrying, being negative, or thinking about injustices of the past, just say NO, say STOP!! Cancel, Clear, Delete them! Take control of your thoughts your world, your life. By being responsible for your thoughts you will begin to create a world that truly reflects your hearts desires. Whenever a negative thought comes, delete it and replace it with a good thought, a good intention. This will take some practice and concentrated effort but it can be done. Instead of continuously manifesting what you do not want in your life, change your focus, adjust the lens of your perception. The world is not yet at the point of instantaneous manifestation, and we tend to give up before our desired manifestation is birthed. Know that ‘DOUBT IS POISON!’ One droplet of doubt can poison and kill any miracle or manifestation! Believe as if it is already so! Believe in your divine ability to manifest. It is Universal law, that all of life will respond to your thoughts. Hold tight to what your heart desires. When you ask God for a glass of water, the Universe will give you a lake! When you ask God for a rose, the Universe will give you a garden! The Universe always gives you more than you ask!

PlanetVisions Update On the Brink By Mark Krueger Are you feeling on the brink? So are so many others. The swings are wild on the karmic ride. The Moon's nodes just having shifted into Cancer-Capricorn stir up life-death issues, death and rebirth itself, the very contracts of our existence in Creation. Tenderness, vulnerability and their dance-mates brutality and aggression are playing out, unwinding. This unwinding is from very long ago to a depth that is difficult to perceive. It is so much the stuff of the gender split, of the desire for the outside and the fear of the outside. What is inside wants to come out; what is outside wants to come in. Oh boy. Oh girl. This week is mellow to some degree at the surface: nicing on the quake.

The only major exact planetary aspects are Sun sextile Uranus on the 9th at 6:08 am and Venus sextile Neptune on the 11th at 3:45 pm. On April 6th Venus entered Aries and on the 12th Mercury joins her there. As well on the 12th there is a lovely Grand Trine in fire signs: Moon in Leo, Pluto in Sagittarius and Venus in Aries and an equally ephemeral T-cross of Moon opposed to Neptune with Mars-Jupiter-Saturn square to each end. But oh the undertow! {again, if you haven't read the essay in the section of this web site 'From Now, On', I suggest that you do; it concerns the wave that is mounting toward the month of May} The T-cross of the 12th heightens our patterning around the will to the power of pleasure. What is being revealed is the unhappiness in the pursuit of happiness, one of the great Rights of American dreaming which tends to ignore the wrongs it perpetuates as it pursues. The deed of greed is to feed upon the seed; true happiness will not grow from this, the object is consumed unconsciously. We finally seek only our Self, but to gobble away at what is outside of us leaves us ever voracious and never fulfilled. Creation is equivalent to capitalism: it wants more, always more, nevertheless. On the brink, we witness this game. If you choose to come Home to your Self, the game is over. If you hook into more precipitous stories: wheeee, onto another round upon the Wheel of Karma/Dharma. The ride goes up and down simultaneously, but the unconscious contracts would have us believe we are but going one direction. What glorious trappings! Until you're finally tired of it all. As you gaze from the brink of your personal stories, do you want to jump? Do you want to go higher? Neither will lead you Home. There is no out by going out. Up or down is round and round. Claim your Self beyond this veil of tiers and be free. Mark Krueger For personal astrological readings contact Mark through his web site: http://www.in2light.com or (503) 232-8300 Please visit the site to read past Updates in the archives section.

ABOUT GILLIAN MACBETH-LOUTHAN, Creator of the Quantum Newsletter Gillian MacBeth-Louthan is author of The Quantum Awakening: Chronicles of Light. A book of visionary insight into the next step of Light for humanity. Gillian is a Visionary, a Seer, born with the gift of knowing. She is a clairvoyant psychic with advanced channeling abilities. Gillian has been a metaphysical teacher for 27 years. She has extensively studied many world religions, esoteric beliefs, the paranormal, metaphysics, Sacred Geometry and Quantum Physics, developing a well rounded polished interpretation of these truths and there effects on today’s every changing world. Gillian writes for several magazines, Horizons, Paradox, One Heart, Namaste Magazine(in South Africa), Channelings Magazine (South Africa) She hosted her own Psychic talk radio show for 2 ½ years and has been a guest speaker on several national radio and television shows. Gillian is a humorous and popular speaker at Body, Mind Spirit Expos. In her search for truth she has traveled to many worldwide sacred sites, including Egypt and all of England, Ireland, and Scotland. She is now studying with Peruvian Shamans. At this time her newsletter is only sent electronically via email worldwide. She can be reached at 407-568-6799 or email quantum@magicnet.net SERVICES AVAILABLE THROUGH THE QUANTUM The Quantum Awakening: Chronicles of Light. A book of visionary insight into the next step of Light for humanity. If you would like to order the book, send check or money order for $15.00 to: (this includes shipping) Gillian Macbeth-Louthan, 2320 Bagdad ave., Orlando, Florida 32833 LONG DISTANCE READINGS via regular mail (GILLIAN DOES NOT DO phone readings)The cost of reading is $65.00 for about 70 minutes, (this includes the mailing cost). The type of info and style of reading will depend on what the Universe has in mind to tell you. This is something that will change your life and is not to be taken lightly or in jest. FOR MORE INFORMATION EMAIL GILLIAN AT Quantum@magicnet.net UPCOMING WORKSHOPS DIVINE MANIFESTATION WORKSHOP Manifesting techniques for the Year 2000 Everything you wanted to know about "MANIFESTING", but forgot as soon as you came to Earth! Prosperity Ceremony with Ganesha & Lakshmi. Collective Consciousness manifesting through the use of Sound, Tone, Breathing, Visualization, Intention, & Activation symbols. MAY 13, (Saturday) 1:00-6:00 Cost $44.00, in East Orlando Florida MAY ALIGNMENT & GATHERING ON MAY 4, 2000 RECEIVING THE PLANETARY STELLIUM OF MAY 3-5, THROUGH ENERGY WORK, MEDITATION, CHANNELING May 4, Thursday night 7:30-9:30, $11.00 call Gillian for details Ongoing CLASSES ADVANCED SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT CLASSES These classes are designed specifically for those individuals that want the newest cutting edge information and techniques associated with Spiritual Advancement. In these classes we will open new doorways of information and try on new truths & techniques, using meditation, visual experience, channeling, energy work, shamanism, symbols, tones, crystal bowls, new and ancient truths.These classes will meet 7:30-9:30 p.m. the last 2 Thursdays of every month, in East Orlando. Cost is $11.00 Call Gillian MacBeth-Louthan at 407-568-6799 or email Quantum@magicnet.net. Gillian is a Spiritual teacher, Visionary, Channel, New Age Writer, and author of the book "The Quantum Awakening". She has been teaching and counseling for 28 years. MEDITATION & SPIRITUAL AWARENESS CLASSES Meditation, regression, remote viewing, healing, psychic development, energy techniques & more! Every Monday night, 7:00-9:00 cost $11.00, at ANGELIC EMBRACE in historic Longwood. Taught by Gillian MacBeth-Louthan, call 407-568-6799. Gillian is a Spiritual teacher, Visionary, Channel, New Age Writer, and author of the book "The Quantum Awakening". She has been teaching and counseling for 28 years.